Wednesday, October 17, 2012
The beginning of this month in October I headed to NCY to present a new project, which was actually a continuation of a body of artwork I developed during my graduate studies called "Save Yourself." I was invited to participate in a performance and installation festival called "Art in Odd Places," which is an annual event. This year it took place along 14th street in Manhattan, NY.
Around this time of year I start to think, where did this year go. It has know been almost a year and a half since I graduated with my MFA in Public Practice, and I am certainly still figuring out my practice. I have been busy since then, but still need to create a tempo and brand to my practice. I began thinking today about how much time I spend planning as an arts administrator. I was staring at my white board ( the type divided up into 3 months) in my office thinking, if only I could do this for myself, for my art practice. I have yet to implement any of this, but I think I'm on to something with the goal planning. While I know that I will not be able to plan my creative moments I can give them opportunities to emerge, as well as a timeframe. My hope is to create a set of goals for my practice and a timeframe to create more respect and accountability for my practice. I sometimes talk myself out of opportunities thinking that its not important enough, but if I could treat it as important as a job I think I would have some more productive results. I think this will also allow my to accept my practice for what it is: small and quiet. To this, I need to decide if this is indeed what I want. In conclusion, I realized that I am spending too much energy on things that are not that important to me, while I have other areas (all be it, not income streams) that are being neglected. My hope is that this will in the long run encourage me to create more work (or even just create more consistently), and allow me to enjoy other areas of my life without feeling guilt ridden or resentful. Now to work on implementation.